you're there in your underwear, vulnerable fighter, fresh from the shower
i'm here defiant in my glare, insecure accuser, i'm high for the next hour
he's bad. he crawls into my nostrils, wraps himself in foil and he's getting nowhere
he says "i'm not an abuser, i'm just an amuser" and i don't buy that shit. i quit.
i'm not trying to create such huge gaps between us, sometimes they just grow.
tectonic plates have no say in what happens, they don't know.
all i feel is all i've ever been and i have never been prepared for a natural disaster.
i just hope i die sometimes. i hold my breath and face my wrongs, living up to my downfalls.
you've said all has been forgiven. you say you're still smitten even though i bit you
right where you don't protect yourself - right in the feelings. i promise i'm still reeling.
i could try to say i'm sorry in a million different ways and still feel just as guilty.
when my nose bleeds i'm dreadfully reminded of his knife body
and all i feel is all i've ever been and i have never been prepared for a natural disaster.
i just hope i die sometimes. i hold my breath and face my wrongs, living up to my downfalls.
two stab wounds: one that he gave me, and one that i gave you
Trevor Powers, formerly known as Youth Lagoon, offers "music for our digital coma" across a melancholic surprise LP. Bandcamp New & Notable Jul 29, 2020